For the past 2 years my life had changed quite a bit, as you are probably aware I do not blog as much as I used to, why? Simply put there are not enough hours in the day to fit everything I need to do into it. It has saddened me quite a bit as I do love my blog. But with working even though it is working from home I am finding it is more of a struggle than having a 9-5 job and I will literally work from 8am through to about 10pm at night, yes I can spend time with Zander while I am doing this but my mind is always somewhere else, planning or my phone glued to my hand as I need to be available. It has been bloody hard. I have lost me and it feels like my family are losing me too, to be truthful I wasn’t spending enough time with them; I am surprised they even remember my name half the time.
This Christmas I had a week off which I have absolutely loved, I have found me again, things I love to do in the evening when the kids are in bed like a bit of cross stitching or playing WOW or even catching up on Greys Anatomy, I know it isn’t much but for almost a year I haven’t had time to do those things. I missed doing them. I have spent the day time with my husband and children, giving them my full attention and do you know what? They seem to have been better behaved and happier having my full attention on them.
Last week has really got me thinking about my family and life in general, my family need me more, I cannot spend the amount of time I have been working, not only is it not fair on my family but I think it is gradually wearing me out. I don’t feel like I get a break, even when I go out I am constantly checking my phone in case someone needs me etc. It is time to break this habit and that may upset some people but ultimately my family are my life and I need to do what is best for us as a family, something has got to give and I cannot lose my family.
So this year it’s going to be different, I am going to spend a lot more time with my family, my kids will only be kids for a short amount of time and I feel like I have missed so much this year. I want to take them out and spend quality time with them all without being preoccupied with other things so they are not getting my full attention. Obviously I am still working I do not need to spend the silly amount of hours doing it like I have been, I am going to set my hours on when to work, blog, etc so hopefully it will not only teach me to manage my time more wisely but also give me the time to spend with my family and also have me time too.